Stuck

I'm not banded yet. but I'm stuck.

I have 1 lb left to lose. It wants to stay.

I have the same 2 lbs that come and go every single weigh in. I'm either 266 or 268. I don't know what's up.

I haven't been exercising as I should.

I've been having stomach aches every day and I don't know why.

I went for a walk (fast pace) and could only make it for SEVEN MINUTES. That's messed up.

I'm sad. I just feel like I don't get to have friends to hang out with because I don't have kids. Sure, I have friends, but I never get to see them because they have kids and of course, they are busy.

I am the photographer for a Mom's group - so I belong to the Fac.ebook group. I get invited to every playgroup (I only go if it's one I'm photographing, which is just a few times a year). and I have to RSVP "NO - I am a fat cow who doesn't get to have any kids so I don't get to go" (at least it feels like that)

I also get invited to their Mom's Night Out every month. I cannot go - I'm not a Mom.

I have been toying with the idea of joining a gym, but I just can't afford it right now.

I'm crying and I just want some food.